After a failed marriage, and a failed relationship, I finally met and married Marguerite. She was already a Christian (I was not), but one Sunday I accompanied her to Braintree Baptist Church. It was announced that an Alpha Course would be starting soon. Being a firm believer in,’if you know little or nothing about something, how can you dismiss it?’, I enrolled and completed the course. It made a lot of sense, but I did not feel ready to make a commitment. I need to tidy a few loose ends up in my life. I signed up for the next course, and at the next Sunday morning service, as we were singing the hymn, ‘Just as I am’, I truly felt God was saying to me he was willing to accept me ‘just as I was’. I became aware that tears were running down my face. I put my hand down to Marguerite’s hand, looked at her and realised that she was crying too. After the service we told the Pastor, and he prayed with me whilst I said sorry for all the wrongs in my life and committed myself to live a life acceptable to God and to follow Jesus to the best of my ability.
I followed this up with a baptismal course and then was baptised by full immersion.
I can’t say that life has been a bed of roses since, but no-one said it would be. Every time I feel I am sliding back to my old way of life, I say sorry to Jesus and then try that bit harder. I know that by accepting his forgiveness I will one day meet him face to face.